oh my

Oh my gosh, has it really been since October??!!


I'll fill you in!

Anyway

October/September came and past and then came Thanksgiving!
Well, since then my life has become extremely stressful and depressing.
Willa, my Mommy2 was diagnosed with cancer that was spread all over her abdomen and she is at stage 4, which is more than likely going to take her life. Anyway, that REALLY REALLY took a toll on me, and then ON Thanksgiving day, the lady I babysit for step-father started groping me in extremely inappropriate places, making me really paranoid for the longest time. THEN my nephews father, sisters boyfriend tried killing himself because my sister broke up with him because of his drinking. That was the icing on the cake. I stopped eating and sleeping and kept having nightmares this was 3-4 weeks ago) But I got over it (stuff like that is fast for me, usually) and it helped a lot to know that the doctors said Mommy2 has about five more years of life left in her, and a lot can change in five years! But then things got back on track when Ron started getting better and Ron is a little less depressed. But then today he learned about that guy touching me, and he is EXTREMELY protective over me. So, now I'm kinda scared he might go beat the freak up and end up going to jail -.-.

But now it's more stressful because I am writing 15 ACTIVE novels, and I'm starting to wonder if I have split personality disorder, for my characters constantly yell at me, and almost every day there are newborns popping up, bursting to be released into the world, though their poor creator is extremely stressed out from so many stories :( .

So I started a Writers Notebook. I got this great idea from Katie!(Thanks, girl!) It's where a writer writes down his/her inspiration, ideas, excerpts and other stuff! It helps a lot because I can release my Newborns, as I like to call them and keep on keeping on with my 15 other stories I have.
Though, I'm really serious about two of these stories, some of you may know
Photos under the Floorboards
and Mae's- The Werewolf.
I'll tell you about those some other time because its almost 12 A.M and I just got back from babysitting literally all day today, then coming home for 15 minutes for a quick shower and then heading off to Guitar Lesson.
OH! That's right! I FINALLY have a guitar instructor, and I'm learning more in a half an hour than I did pouring for months over beginner books! I'm excited. His name is Jessie, but its a little disconcerting because I'm used to a blind teacher, and he stares at me frequently ( :\ ). And then often takes me guitar to play instead of his own from my Dad. Me and my Dad take lessons together, and for the time being uses Jessie's guitar till he gets his own. And then it's odd because when he plays strings so I can hear how they all ring, he sorta... like, raises up on the stool, and makes this weird face like he's having some weird body- movement.
Other than that, he's handsome and cool LOL!
But yeh. We also now have two huge Pot-bellied pigs we got the from the neighbors we were SUPPOSED to butcher, but they got away and have been that way since September. We've tried many times, but each time has been extremely unsuccessful.
But can you BELIEVE it's going to be Christmas next Friday? CRAZY! can't believe it. This year has gone by too fast, and pretty soon I'm going to be *le gaspeth* FIFTEEN!

EEK!
anyway, that's all for tonight!
love y'all!